From blooming days.. to dull.. That's what's happening with our relationship. I can't deny that.. We are falling apart.

Don't get me wrong, he's not the problem, I AM.. or maybe he made me to be the problem? I've always been sweet and sobrang kulit sa kanya.. pero isang araw, nawala nalang lahat yun. Tinotopak na talaga ako.. magiisang bwan na ata. I suddenly became cold, no hindi ako sawa sa kanya, hindi ako nagsasawa.. but alam niyo yung feeling na, he's always busy and lacks time with you? - - He has valid reasons naman, he text me sometime, but I just don't want to reply nalang.. I was depressed. Para bang, yun mga times na I needed him, wala siya to give me support and comfort me.. dahil busy siya.

I don't want to break up, I never want to break up, but para sa kanya, I am asking for a break-up dahil sa mga kilos ko, salita ko.. I was very cold, there were even times na sinigawan ko siya, which is very unintentional, maybe depressed lang talaga ako eh.

I wanted to cry, sobra. Pero alam niyo, I am still not crying, parang mas mahirap, kasi para bang ang puso ko ang umiiyak para sa akin.. for what reason? I don't know. Magkikita kami later, subukang magusap ng personal kung maaayos pa namin ito.. Hindi ko alam anu ang mangyayare, possibleng magbreak kami.. After our conversation last night, parang ganun eh..

If he ever ask for a break up, then that would hurt me big time, but I won't stop him.. maybe because sa sobrang sakit I'd rather not say - - no, i don't want to break up.. - - maybe I would just be speechless about it. Posting this here, really gives me pain.. it's really hard for me..

My friends doesn't even know what I am going through, as if they will take it seriously.. I doubt it. I don't know, I really never told them.. damn, it hurts.

I am so nervous.. sobrang ewan ang feeling.. I am feeling bad..

Lahat ba ng nangyareng okay sa akin lately may kapalit?Ito na ba ang kapalit na yun? Or it is simply telling me that we are just not meant for eachother :(

it's time;
6:07 AM

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